Welcome to my poetry blog! I will be publishing new poetry here every Monday. My poetry has appeared in How Writing Works: A Field Guide to Effective Writing and One Page: Brisbane. I enjoy playing the guitar, birdwatching, and gaming. There might be more to me than any of this.
Unrequited
Masking tape stretches taut over stiff cardboard,
tick as it rips off the roll—exciting beginning:
Box half open
Eyes peer into clawing emptiness,
it demands fulfillment—expects it, like an
Empty heart
Bubble wrap settles between each marbled plate,
it cushions the bottom—acknowledging fragility—
Paper envelopes chipped glasses, mugs.
Suffocating?
The box becomes heavy, so quickly,
Muscles stretch, fray,
Chest burning—
You’re killing me.
I can’t create a box to put these feelings in.
Recursive
My life unravels at my feet
My apathy will not abate
I dream of death and know it’s sweet
You cared for me at our first meet
But yearning love you cannot sate
My life unravels at my feet
Your burning rage I cannot beat
A sadness twisted into hate
I dream of death and know it’s sweet
An enemy lives on every street
Lies and hurt flow through each gate
My live unravels at my feet
I daydream so my soul can eat
A thousand unseen lives collate
I dream of death and know it’s sweet
I have a life you’ll never greet
These circumstances sealed my fate
My life unravels at my feet
I dream of death and know it’s sweet
too many years
of feeling
like a stain on your shirt
like a pebble in your shoe
like a thorn in your flower arrangement
like a regret
like a faulty appliance
like the cause of all your problems
like a shadow in a quiet room
like I’ve forgotten my lines
like a starving, pitiable mongrel festering in the street
like the only people safe to love are fictional or far away
the lifeline lady said she could hear me bleed through the phoneline
pity my gored face never bothered you much
I want the Doctor
I want to know what it feels like to be loved
I want my sadness to make you sad
Caligula
It’s all mine
You’ll adhere to my whims, pathetic swine
Statues underneath my eyelids; fire in my hands
It’s all going to plan
Martyr yourself on my blade
But first look upon the face where beauty does not fade
I walk upon the water of Lake Nemi, behold
a life dipped in gold
It’s all mine
This world, its people, its treasures lost to time
A more divine being this world has never seen
My life is obscene
Infinite
I’m slowly stitching back my severed nerves, carefully, serrated edge dripping through my hands. have you ever been so [rage] you try to rip your shirt off at the collarbone? knees that topple to the ground, a controlled demolition. it [hurts].
You feel like imploding, collapsing inwards, [grief] is ripping chunks out of muscles again. why do you keep making me [sad] when it has been so long! it isn’t fair, when I try so hard, long, forever, to get it right. it isn’t right. stop [hurting] me.
I’m poking around for the [happy] in a rainy day, the [joy] in a dismissive gesture, the [love] in an empty house. I feel a [d]rag when you’re fl[ying].